I've stopped sleeping.

The past two nights I have stayed at Cameron's dorm with Madi. It has been so fun. We play Halo and watch movies. Currently we're watching all the episodes of Firefly, hah. We also play Zelda and Super Smash Bros, which is pretty badass of us in my opinion. The night before last we didn't sleep at all and Madi and I got back to our dorm at 7:30 in the morning.

Yesterday was actually an awful day. I saw Brent and it was like the good old days, and it disturbed and depressed me, which is rather sad really. So Madi and I went to Cameron's (I was so happy that he had Manchester Orchestra playing when we walked in, and him and CJ were playing Halo and singing) and I accidentally fell asleep around 8 this morning, but that was fine because he, Madi and I squeezed onto the bed. It was really nice, although I only slept for about twenty minutes. 

I don't know what I'm doing? A lot of homework today, then I'm going to pick a nice spot around campus to read. I've started reading a lot again, but I've read through all my good books besides the ones I've lent to people. Sarah's bringing me back my Tweak book and then I doubt I'll ever see any of the other books I've lent out again. Meh.

Cheddar cheeze-its and soy milk. Breakfast of champions at three in the afternoon. 

fuck it all.

I miss Lamp and Jesse and Adam. I need them to keep me sane. All I have here are girls who only know what I let them know, because they wouldn't know what to do with the rest of me. 

I saw Brent. He went on some errands with me, and bought me starbucks. I guess it was fine. We did some other things, too, things that Adam would kill me if he found out. But fuck it all.

My accounts are frozen and I don't know why. I still haven't taken care of that speeding ticket, mainly because I can't (frozen accounts will do that). It's due by the 24th. Fuck.

I have to study for an exam tomorrow. I can't remember what the material is, much less which class. Oh well. I'm going to go get fucked up.

See you all later, I guess.

Congratulations.

You broke me. Finally, after all this time, you have crushed me, wholly and completely. Yippee.

I am better than you. I will be a better person, I will pick myself up and tape me back together. Just you watch.